Anxiety

So, tomorrow I am going to my new school to start setting up my classroom. Last year I was fortunate enough to have the previous teacher of the class come in and help me with the setup, and for that, I will always be grateful. This year, I will not be so lucky, I'll be all by myself.

I am so worried about tomorrow, and what I will see when I get to my room. I'm curious if things will be missing, if the furniture I wanted for my room will not have arrived. It's completely irrational, and I am a professional I should rely on my education and experience to help me with this situation. Yes, that is what I should do.... However, I'm just up late at night, my stomach is in a tight knot, and I'm finding that my eyes are tearing up for no reason. I keep thinking, "What have I gotten myself into?".

I'm hoping tomorrow, will go well, that by going into the school with a few boxes I'll be more comfortable and get over this feeling that time is running out.

YouTube

So, I watch videos on YouTube that pertain to weightloss and the maintenance of African American hair ( do you see the link between them? lol ). Anyway, today I was watching a new video posted by Sushicatny ( I subscribe to her channel ), little did I know that she was going to be dancing in a dress ( it could have been lingerie ) and I was horrified. I immediately, unsubscribed from her channel.... I really don't want her dancing around like that.

Now... what was the point of this post? Oooh yeah. I just going to comment on how I love that YouTube has become a soapbox for so many people different people. Especially those who have a cause, and new types of crazy.

A Life Alone?

I don't remeber if I've written about this before, but I think I may have like three years ago. Well I'm back on the subject. In recent weeks, I've seen three movies that have brought me back to wondering if I'll ever get married?

I'm thinking that my life looking more and more as if I'm going to be a permenant solo mission. The dating situation is grim. eHarmony has not been much of a confidence boost, because it's hard not to take it personal when you have 20 people a day "closing communication" ( a.k.a rejecting ) me everyday. I usually try to communicate with all my matches, but never get any responses. I'm completely fed up with the whole thing, I can live my life alone and be satisfied. I have to start re-orienting my life plan to that of a modern love life spinster.

Cooking update! So I baked a pumpkin pie, and decided that I was an all star! So, two weeks later I decided to bake another Pumpkin pie..... well..... this one did not go so well. I forgot to turn down the ovena and I burnt the top and bottom of the pie lol... Hoooraaayy!!! Maybe I won't be the next Martha Stewart either? hahaha

Natalie

Dating and Pounds

Hello Everyone!

So, I'm sitting here at home watching Rachel Ray on TV and enjoying a well deserved break, after busting my butt for a whole month working on my Special Education Part II AQ ( Only another teacher, i.e. Meghan, would understand). Conveniently, Rachel's show today is about online dating! So this caused me to go check my Eharmony account to see if I had any messages. Surprise, I had no messages, despite having messaged every male match that I received. In fact, I had a lot of a closed matches instead :(. So, so far the online dating for me is not going very well at all. I'm thinking after I shed about 40 - 60lbs, my online dating experience will begin to increase.

Also today, I went to the gym to work out with my Personal Trainer ( aka Phil The Torturer ), and when I weighed myself before I went I was up 2lbs, which is not so good. I blame my weight increase on my 6 days in Jamaica. I'm hoping soon I will be back on track and slimmer than I currently am.

Natalie

Oh yeah, check out my new profile picture. I did on www.yearbookyourself.com

Sushi

Konichiwa!

Today was great, I finished the second last assignment I had to do for my AQ and now I only have one assignment left! Woo Hoo... OCT certificate Spec Ed Part II here I come.

Also, this evening I went to do dinner with my friend Kim to 168 Sushi Buffet. It was awesome services as usual ( sarcasm ) but I like my sushi hole in the wall, plus I haven't had a bout of food poisoning from it yet.

Natalie
(Yay Me!)

Neglect

Good lord, look how I have neglected this blog?

I can't even remeber what the topic was of my last post, it probably had something to do about complaining, about something or other. Well, let me bring you up to date!

I graduated from Teachers College :)
I took me 9 months after that to get on the Supply List for the Peel District School Board :(
I could never pull it togethor to myself a pastoral letter, I'm not really upset about this because I don't consider myself a very good catholic.
I supply taught for 6 months in both the elementary and secondary panel :)
The next school year I got hired into a 6 month LTO in a Developmentally Delayed Classroom, and it kept getting extended until it was a whole year LTO :)
For the coming school year ( 09/10) I GOT HIRED INTO MY FIRST PERMENANT POSITION!!!!! WOOO HOOOO.!!! :)

So, it took me three years to get a permenant position ( I am not complaining, this is pretty amazing for anyone trying to get into the teaching field in Ontario ). I've finally got my life on track. I am working out, and watching what I am eating and I am slowly losing a pounds.

The only thing that's left, is seeing Europe and China, Falling in Love, Buying a House.

We'll see how these go.

I Have No Sick Days

As a supply teacher in my Board I have no sick days. What does that mean? Well for those of you out there with no deductive skills I will tell you. It means that if I am unable to work one day because I am not well I am not getting any money for that lost day. Terrible isn't it? The expectation is that all the teachers who are regular full-time teachers with their classrooms are able to be ill; but, Supply Teachers are not able to be ill so that they can fill for the regular teachers when they are. Does this make sense? The schoolboard would save all kinds of money if they could simply just employ all the supply teachers as regular teachers. Supply teachers are never sick and therefore are able to work every school day. Nice logic eh?


Ms. S
( I am a supply and therefore am unable to be ill)