Anxiety

So, tomorrow I am going to my new school to start setting up my classroom. Last year I was fortunate enough to have the previous teacher of the class come in and help me with the setup, and for that, I will always be grateful. This year, I will not be so lucky, I'll be all by myself.

I am so worried about tomorrow, and what I will see when I get to my room. I'm curious if things will be missing, if the furniture I wanted for my room will not have arrived. It's completely irrational, and I am a professional I should rely on my education and experience to help me with this situation. Yes, that is what I should do.... However, I'm just up late at night, my stomach is in a tight knot, and I'm finding that my eyes are tearing up for no reason. I keep thinking, "What have I gotten myself into?".

I'm hoping tomorrow, will go well, that by going into the school with a few boxes I'll be more comfortable and get over this feeling that time is running out.

YouTube

So, I watch videos on YouTube that pertain to weightloss and the maintenance of African American hair ( do you see the link between them? lol ). Anyway, today I was watching a new video posted by Sushicatny ( I subscribe to her channel ), little did I know that she was going to be dancing in a dress ( it could have been lingerie ) and I was horrified. I immediately, unsubscribed from her channel.... I really don't want her dancing around like that.

Now... what was the point of this post? Oooh yeah. I just going to comment on how I love that YouTube has become a soapbox for so many people different people. Especially those who have a cause, and new types of crazy.

A Life Alone?

I don't remeber if I've written about this before, but I think I may have like three years ago. Well I'm back on the subject. In recent weeks, I've seen three movies that have brought me back to wondering if I'll ever get married?

I'm thinking that my life looking more and more as if I'm going to be a permenant solo mission. The dating situation is grim. eHarmony has not been much of a confidence boost, because it's hard not to take it personal when you have 20 people a day "closing communication" ( a.k.a rejecting ) me everyday. I usually try to communicate with all my matches, but never get any responses. I'm completely fed up with the whole thing, I can live my life alone and be satisfied. I have to start re-orienting my life plan to that of a modern love life spinster.

Cooking update! So I baked a pumpkin pie, and decided that I was an all star! So, two weeks later I decided to bake another Pumpkin pie..... well..... this one did not go so well. I forgot to turn down the ovena and I burnt the top and bottom of the pie lol... Hoooraaayy!!! Maybe I won't be the next Martha Stewart either? hahaha

Natalie